My heart is breaking
I have been saying lots and lots of prayers. I know that Drew has been working very hard. He called and has been asmoed to FIT. He was 20 seconds over on his run so he didn't pass his PFA. :(
I am crying right now, more than I have since he has been gone. He says he is going to keep trying. But I know he won't get to graduate with his division. I know he is being moved away from him friends, his support system, and everything he has known for over 7 weeks. Battle stations is today, and he isn't there with him. We are still going to Chicago. I need to see my boy. I don't even think he will get his birthday card, but I don't think the mail follows them very well. I didn't get to talk to him, he left a message on my machine. He did call the Chief at his recruiting station, though. The Chief told him not to let it get him down. He said it was only 20 secs. It just stinks big time that he won't get to graduate like everyone else, and that we won't get to see him graduate and come in those big doors.
In his last letter, he said he wants to see Iron Man so bad, and that he hoped it would still be in the theaters next week when we went. Now we get to visit him for two hours a day, and he doesn't get to leave the base, or even the Public Affairs Office I think. My heart is breaking for my boy. Maybe it's a good thing I didn't get to talk to him. The chief was probably the best person for him to talk to ...
I am crying right now, more than I have since he has been gone. He says he is going to keep trying. But I know he won't get to graduate with his division. I know he is being moved away from him friends, his support system, and everything he has known for over 7 weeks. Battle stations is today, and he isn't there with him. We are still going to Chicago. I need to see my boy. I don't even think he will get his birthday card, but I don't think the mail follows them very well. I didn't get to talk to him, he left a message on my machine. He did call the Chief at his recruiting station, though. The Chief told him not to let it get him down. He said it was only 20 secs. It just stinks big time that he won't get to graduate like everyone else, and that we won't get to see him graduate and come in those big doors.
In his last letter, he said he wants to see Iron Man so bad, and that he hoped it would still be in the theaters next week when we went. Now we get to visit him for two hours a day, and he doesn't get to leave the base, or even the Public Affairs Office I think. My heart is breaking for my boy. Maybe it's a good thing I didn't get to talk to him. The chief was probably the best person for him to talk to ...
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Permalink Reply by Kim on -
Hi Dianne, I am so sorry to hear about this. Did you buy chance purchase your tickets on a credit card? and if so would you maybe have some recourse there??? Just a thought. uughh... You can't switch the dates? so you wouldn't lose any money? Do you have a possible date for Drew? I am just racking my brain trying to think of something you can do.. so you don't lose out on those tickets and $$ so if I am rambling .. I am sorry. Hopefully one of the other moms might have an idea. Hang in there... we are all here for you!! Please don't hesitate to use us!!
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Permalink Reply by Stephany on -
Well my brother called today for less than a minute and let us know that he was very close to completing his run. He has high hopes to PIR next week! He also shipped his pictures to us, we received them yesterday! In his DIV pic he is right up in the front (being the shortest of course) and he's holding the flag. I want to wish good luck to our recruits who need a little extra help ;)
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Permalink Reply by Frieda on -
Stephany, I will be praying for your brother also that he will pass his PFA, he's not alone and you are wonderful for staying so positive for him and your mom. I hope he does PIR next week.
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Permalink Reply by Ellen on -
Dianne -
I am so sorry. It's really hard to think of him up there on his birthday, feeling discouraged. This is really tough for him and for you and for your whole family. I feel like crying and I don't even know him...... This is one of those times when you're thankful the day ends so that you can try again tomorrow. I am really so sorry.
Now for the good news -- he's safe, he's healthy, he's not defeated until he stops trying, and God is still on the throne. I have to remind myself of these facts all the time -- my son just ended his second week on Ship 17, waiting for a medical waiver. I become anxious when I look at his circumstances, I become peaceful when I remember the truth that God loves him and has a plan for his life. We have to stand on God's promises when we are overwhelmed with life -- I'll remind you and you can remind me when I forget! Stay strong -- Ellen
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Permalink Reply by Frieda on
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And please Ellen, keep reminding me too. Sometimes life is overwhelming and I keep reminding myself that God will never give us more than we can handle. Right? And then I think about my son, and I hear no bitterness or discouragement in his voice or his letters. So, God is Good.
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Permalink Reply by Angie F.- WA: HM mom on -
Freida, you probably know that the verse that people usually use when referring to God not giving us more than we can bear is found in 1 Corinthians 10:13; the context of the verse is more accurately urging us to stand firm in the face of temptation, that He will not allow us to be tempted beyond what we can bear and that He will give us strength to stand up under the weight of that burden. (It is so tempting to give in to despair, to be anxious and take your eyes off Him and squarely on to your problems isn't it!) Here's one I find encouraging in troubled times:
"Likewise , the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with a groaning too deep for words. and He who searches hearts knows what is in the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. AND we know that for those who love God, all things work together for good..." Romans 8:26-28
Dianne-isn't it comforting to know that when we are cried out, exhausted and in turmoil or in the depths of pain and disappointment, we have an intercessor who brings us to the throne of Grace and Glory. God will carry you now. He IS good, ALL the time, even our recruits say that every night before bed. People will be watching how you, your family and your son handles this time of discouragement. How blessed you are to have all these wonderful ladies to lean on too! I pray that you and Drew will soon be able to look back on this time, to see and testify to how your faith grew and how all things worked together for Drew's good and God's glory. May you all rest in perfect peace tonight.
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Permalink Reply by Frieda on
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Angie, thank you, I really needed those scriptures, you and Millye have been a blessing and a comfort.
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Permalink Reply by Millye on -
Dianne and Freida,
Hang in there ladies and do your best to stay strong for those young men of yours. They need to know you are unwavering in your support and belief in them. I know these are hard times because I've been there too and walked the same journey you are on now. Just know that I am beside you in spirit and am praying for you both and those wonderful sons of yours. Remember tough times don't last; but tough people do! ((( Hugs))) to you both!
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Permalink Reply by Brenda Sue on -
Diane, my heart breaks for you and your son. The worse thing is not being able to be there for him. Hopefully, you can work something out with the airline!!!
Keeping you in our prayers!!!
Just remember Jeremiah 29:11 and believe it!!!
God has a plan for us!!
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Permalink Reply by wendy on
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If you have non refundable tickets call the airline they may help you out since your son is military and all. I hope all is well and hes on his way. We are all in this thing together as our children serve thier country as a whole so do we as Moms of Children in the Navy. My prayers to you and your family this will all turn out good Im positive in my thoughts
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Permalink Reply by Dianne (Drew's Mom) on -
Okay Moms ... here goes. We went anyway. I just felt that we had to. I felt that God was testing me. You know the Bible saying, when Jesus is talking to Thomas because he believed after seeing and touching the wounds. He said, "You believe because you see. Blessed who do not see, yet believe." (Not sure if these are the exact words.) I had been giving this to God, and taking it back, giving it to God and taking it back, and so on. I truly believe that God had given me enough signs that Drew would make it, but that I needed to show that I had blind faith. Well, we came to Great Lakes anyway. I told my husband, "We need to go." I need to be there with my son.
When we got to Detroit to make our connection, we had a voice message from Drew on our cell phone(totally unexpected). He said that he had passed his PFA and was doing Battle stations Thursday night, graduating Friday! I was so excited, and so glad I didn't cancel my flight! Then we showed up for grad this morning, and Drew's name wasn't on the list. My husband explained the situation, and they sent us up to Public Affairs. They checked and said that they had finished battle stations, but the scores hadn't been counted yet. They said there had been a few who had not passed, and it would be a half hour before they knew. I asked if we could just go into the graduation hall. My husband said he wanted to know. The guy came back in 5 minutes and said, "You're good to go. He passed!" So we went in and spent the whole PIR looking for him. We knew that when you were up all night, they usually had them sit in the balcony because of safety reasons (fatigue). Then when they called liberty, no Drew. Back to Public Affairs we went. Dennis went upstairs and I stayed outside to wait for him in case he came by. It wasn't long before I saw that face that I held in my arms for the first time 20 years and 2 days ago. The very same face. He was still in his utility blues, with a bundle of paperwork and his NAVY ballcap. He said that since he was supposed to leave for Groton on Sunday, he thought he would finish his paperwork and keep on schedule. I think the PIR means more to us than to them. The ballcap ceremony is what matters to them. While we were talking, several sailors from his division came by and asked what was going on, and he tipped the ballcap to them, basically saying, "I did it guys!"
We are currently waiting for him to finish processing his paperwork so we can pick him up for liberty. He may even have overnight liberty since he is leaving Sunday. He said we are definitely seeing Iron Man. Also, Angie, I found it interesting the words you used in your posting. We had our last school liturgy on Tuesday at our parish church. The sermom was about trusting God. One thing the priest always does is says, "God is good," to which the students reply, "All the time." And if the priest says, "All the time," the students reply God is good." I thank thank God for reminding me who is in charge, I thank God for Drew's success in this particular bump in the road (thank you Mary), and I thank God for all of you.
One last thing. I will continue to pray for those in FIT and ship 17, as well as all the recruits. Drew said there are some who are getting discouraged, and depressed in trying to make that run goal. It's kind of said really ... to qualify in everything else and have a hard time shaving off that time on the run. But like someone told me about Drew, "God must have something else for them to learn there." I will pray for them to learn it and not give up hope.
Thank you all.
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